It’s been over a year…

I was looking at my blog the other day, and I realized that I haven’t posted for over a year.  There is a good reason…

My last post in November of 2014 mentioned that my father had cancer.  Unfortunately, he lost his fight to melanoma in January of this year.

As my family was just starting to recover to a new normal this fall, unbelievably my mother was also diagnosed with lung cancer and passed away in October, just nine months after we lost my dad.

So out of a family of four, we have lost my brother to lung cancer at age 40 in 2013; my father to melanoma at age 68 in 2015; and my mother also to lung cancer at age 67 in 2015.  I have no other siblings.  In a matter of 2 years, I have lost my entire family to cancer.  One by one.

Obviously, outside of the incredible grief, this is terrifying for me. I will be having genetic counseling and testing done early next year to try and determine if I am at risk.

I am trying to get into the holiday spirit this year for the sake of my children, but it’s really hard to do this year…